34 weeks... AHH

Random Updates:
~ so I know it's been forever since I've posted anything on here, let alone a bump update, but I had an appointment today and thought i'd update:) our life lately has consisted of baby shower #1, finals, and crazy work schedules. On top of that, me just feeling huge and ugly which makes me not want to write anything haha, but I've been feeling really good lately and am getting really excited/nervous!
~ First of all, I am going to be a mom in 6 weeks, or maybe even less, and to be honest I am freaking out. Yes I helped raise my four younger siblings, I know how to calm crying babies and the crying doesn't really faze me because, well, babies cry no matter what, I've changed way too many diapers, and know a lot about babies in general. but something about having my own, who I will be responsible for is so scary all of a sudden.
~ I have been having so many baby dreams-good and bad-and it's making everything so REAL. like what if I lose it and drop out of school and quit my jobs and then we can't pay our bills... daily thoughts that go through my head. I know it is going to be an amazing experience and so worth the frustration and sleep deprivation, but you never know! (my fear of the unknown has taken over my soul).
~ The fact that I don't even know what it's like to not be pregnant is weird.. will I ever be the same again?
~We finished our prenatal classes and I am kind of sad that they are over! there is something so calming about them and we have learned so much from them.
~ The nursery is almost done and I am hoping he doesn't come super early because I am not ready! he has maybe 6 outfits (i'm waiting to shop until after my shower) and we have no car seat yet! plus his room is not complete and I know if he comes before it is, it will never get done haha.
~ I am looking forward to the after shower shopping spree that Kaden and I will get to endeavor on. We love picking stuff out for him and anything miniature is just adorable. Kaden saw a baby tuxedo the other day and almost died haha!
~ I have gained 30 pounds.. but this last appointment I only gained 3 pounds in a month which I was super happy about! I feel like I expanded really quick and then settled which is completely fine with me!
~ He has been such a sweetheart with movements lately. I swear he knows my schedule and always holds still when i'm working or sleeping, which has been so very nice! He still moves A LOT, it's just at convenient times.
~ School is OVER! I can't stress enough how happy this makes Kaden & I! we still work a lot, but having no school and being able to spend more time together, snuggled up by the Christmas tree watching Christmas movies, is so nice and much needed. I've decided not to dance next semester, which is a relief, so I don't rush my body into healing too fast. So i'm just taking four classes and two of them are online so that will be a nice break.
~ Christmas time is my favorite time. finding presents for Kaden this year was hard because he never tells me what he wants, but I'm pretty sure I nailed it:) we get to go up north for a whole week and I am so excited! the past two years I have only been home for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day so i'm excited to spend lots of time with our families.
~ In closing, I am super excited to meet my baby boy and see his cute face (hoping he has hair haha)! you can come anytime after January 10th (my shower) Cove!